Another phase of my life is ending. I will be back here soon. Promise.
I wish I was dead sometimes. so my parents wont have to worry about what I'm going to do with my life or them having to look after me until I'm married off and shipped somewhere they can never reach, or having to put up with my disgraceful shenanigans. they would no longer have to be embarrassed by being asked the question " what is your daughter doing now?". My brother can get my camera and my sister can have all my bags, bracelets and make up ( I cant say clothes because my clothes arent that nice ). I'd make prints of my favourite photographs and sell them, every single sent to charity. I'd donate any organs needed and even my ( lacklustre, omgaswh) hair.
I dont think I have to wish it, since A levels would be the death of me.
I'm not being emotional, I just always feel shattered when I'm reminded of how much of a burden I am to my folks, and how all of us
siblings are somewhat disappointments. None of us earn 10k a month, we dont
have the nice cars , we dont score the earth-shattering grades. If me
not being around would make my folks' life easier, I'd do it in a
heartbeat. I probably wouldnt have raced so hard to reach that darn
ovum if I knew my existence was nothing but an accident that's become
an annoying splinter burried deep in my parents' skin
Koop - Koop Island Blues
Ilamai oonjalaadukirathu Vaarththai thavari Ilaiyaraaja
