3 posts tagged “new jersey”
This is the website of a girl I still love although she hates me for falling asleep at a concert, out of my own admitted naiveté. Not like she wasn't at fault. It didn't want for us to stop speaking so long before we were never to see each other again but it couldn't be avoided. The last time I remember us having the time of our lives together was watching Legally Blond II and how Reese Witherspoon's head was spectacularly back lit in every shot. Elle Woods made a comment about how no one should wear paisley. We were silent for a whole minute till I broke it with "but everyone loves paisley" and she laughed at how she was thinking exactly the same. How humiliating, liking paisley. We didn't know whether or not Elle had made a valid point.
I knew how to fold when she took pictures of me, I let her do anything to me but there was little I asked of her. I am usually like this in friendships. I adored her and whatever I must have done to have driven her away, I guess I didn't notice but she's given me a six year deadline before we become friends again. I don't know how true that is but I look forward to this prophecy.
She still has pictures of me on her website while I still patter away on blogs. She's closer to bigger things than I but I've always worked on a different scale next to other talented people either out of stupidity, insanity or a worser case of idealism. Still, that's my face replaced with trees and I think it's brilliant symbolism. I don't know if I ever told her my name meant 'precious tree'.
I'm so glad to be back in QUT. I love my classmates and how professional everyone is. Everyone knows their place and position. There's nothing I appreciate more than people who are professional about their work. It's like butter and honey, I swear to god, I love it that much. They're such characters that I almost want to kick myself for ever leaving them for New Jersey, but then again I needed the move then.
I'm glad that I'm good with opportunities and surviving. I revel in being back in Brisbane and I'm surprised that I'm actually sad about leaving these people when I've been begging to graduate. These awesome, awesome human beings - I forgot how much I loved my friends in Australia. I think back to what I learned in New Jersey and wonder if it was worth it. In terms of film and technical things, I learnt very little, which I regret. Yet I don't regret that the experience made me so much stronger. I don't think I got enough of an academic education out of it but I got savvy, maturity, experience. You can't put a price on that. I think it definitely helped my writing skills and how I read people, direct actors, see stories and my survival skills.
People think I'm crazy for wanting to shoot a feature in KK. Of course. But I'm not in this (and by 'this' I mean life) to do what everyone else has done. I'm 21, I have the rest of my life to get paid. I want to struggle, I want make an effort to come out with something exquisite until it doesn't work anymore; till either I die or it becomes an absolute necessity for me to sustain myself because I'm getting evicted from whatever gutter I have to start living in. It's okay. I'm trying to milk my youthful enthusiasm while I still have it.
Dream Cradle is going to happen. I'm so worried about finances because 35mm lenses are gonna cost $AUD3000 for that week alone. I need a job. Things have changed since the 80's, I can't sell my blood like Robert Rodriguez did and I'm hesitant to make use of my pert rack for artsake only because I do still need to prostitute myself to my conservative Asian nation first and foremost. I'm going to call for donations online soon so once we start a blog, tell your friends. Advertise me if you can, I'd appreciate it so much that we can be friends. Yes. Real friends. I offer, in return for your amazing support, my friendship and eternal gratitude. If you won't spend on this short film, at least consider some more lucrative and deserving charity association to do with a good humanitarian cause or some terminal disease that involves women or children. It's the gift that keeps on giving!
"What we have done for ourselves alone dies with us; what we have done for others and the world remains and is immortal." - Albert Pike.
And with that I've just incurred guilt into your souls with some dinky quote I found on the internet. But think about the possibilities. It beats paying for Astro (satellite TV).
Tweedle Li: do anything!
I just wanna see your side of the world for a day
You've more or less seen mine
NNN:
I'm not a fan of the candidness of my life
Sorry
That's why i don't share as much
I don't like my life photographed candidly but I love my Tweedle and I think I should succumb to having some touristy photos or else leave with none. This is my one hour ride from Montclair, New Jersey into New York that I take approximately four times a week because I work or I get bored. I don't like the 'stop, red light, go, green light' of school and syllabus. It makes me edgy so I need to be busy.
I take the NJ transit from my stop - Little Falls Montclair State University, right across from my dormitory. Taking the Montclair-Boonton line, I go past Upper Montclair; Watsessing Avenue, Mountain Avenue, Broad Street, Secaucus, to name a few stops, before I get to New York Penn Station which is right below Madison Square Garden. This is me, a couple of times a week. When I'm on the train I either write in my journal, sleep or read. I've done this a hundred times but taking the train is still one of my favourite things about being here. I know one day I'll be old and miss it.
