3 posts tagged “sabah”
My short film 'The Reader', shot in New Jersey, is going to be screened at Annexe Theatre, Central Market, Kuala Lumpur this 27th of June:
It's a bit of a dinky film only because it's been adapted from a novel by Bernhard Schlink of the same title (The Reader), which was an assignment. I'm happy with it, just that, as a writer I would have preferred to do an original story. Nonetheless, my actors were and are, amazing and I regret nothing. It's not great but it's an admirable piece nonetheless. The plot may not be original but the concept and delivery, is. It's my first out-of-school, public screening and I would appreciate the support and by all means, spread the word. I'm not sure what to expect but we can say that I'm finally going places with my work, which is always a good sign. Tell your friends. Come support!
Four years of living abroad and soon I graduate. Soon I graduate and moving back to KK (even if temporarily) is all I can think about because I'm tired of not having a home. I love to travel but travelers have their homes and I'm borderline nomadic which is so not what I want to pursue. Of course, I'm grateful. A lot of people I know are griping about having not left their own countries, wanting to pursue something better and I keep telling people - the rest of the world isn't better. It's just the rest of the world. I've accumulated a lot of wisdom but never enough. The test of me surviving on home ground seems far more difficult. We're talking Kota Kinabalu here and I'm plagued by the fact that so many young people have to be torn between staying and pursuing better careers and lives elsewhere... like one day we grew up and realised Sabah wasn't good enough. Trust me to have a Peter Pan complex.
Maybe it's that we don't want it to ever turn into a metropolis so we don't stay to fix things. Even if we were the ones to build it to that we'd feel guilty but it's us or the politicians who do. People are so weak and silly sometimes. They don't realise that when there's nothing but raw, fertile soil, they can be the pioneers. As in, don't search for an industry, start one and you'll be legendary. Roger Wang's made a good start already. I just want to film us before we all lose our culture to the west, West Malaysia, Koreans, pilaks and Christians. Damn those missionaries are sprouting churches like mushrooms and I kid you not. I still attest to the emphasis of religion before education because how else are you going to comprehend religion? Tangent.
Okay, plans. Again with my big plans. Little girl, big plans. People say that they look at me and they see spark, talent, success. Nice to know but I get paranoid thinking that they're picturing me - red carpet, lots of moolah and doing a Michelle Yeoh. Hell no I'm selling my soul to fucking Spielberg. My definition of success is to capture our culture and people on film in order to remind us who we are. Culture is what counts, it is what makes us unique. It's what makes friends stronger, beer taste better, the days shine brighter and the coldest nights, warmer. Without it, we have no umbilical cord. And take it from someone who has somehow developed an American accent and can hardly speak Malay for shit. Adapting is surviving but preservation is fighting. It's paying your respects to what you love. And then people gripe about censorship... of course Malaysians are conservative when it comes to how we define ourselves, it's because they don't see enough variety, they don't see enough of what they do. We're living in the age of youtube and pirated editing software. We really don't have much excuse to fail. It's not a financially secure career but it's a worthy pursuit.
I watched Shawshank Redemption the other day. I could relate to Andy Dufresne, making do with unfortunate circumstances. My circumstances aren't terrible but I am at a disadvantage with what I want to do but I know I'll have the support of friends, family and people who love Sabah as much as I do. I'm trying to figure something out and last as long as I can and I'll tell you to mind tuttering at me. Pfft. I'm young. I might as well do something before my youthful optimism runs out. So long as some good comes out of my naivety, "youth is for revolution." Mine will not be wasted. What the hell do I know about what I'm up against but I'll find out and that's more than what most people have done so far.
Tinggi-tinggi Gunung Kinabalu
Tinggi lagi sayang sama kamu
Biru-biru hujung Kinabalu
Tengok dari jauh hati saya rindu
Kinabalu dekat di Kundasang
Banyak sayur boleh pilih-pilih
Apa guna pergi luar negeri
Naik Kinabalu hati saya rindu
Sumandak-sumandak pun ramai menunggu
Menari-nari lenggang sumazau
sekali ku lihatmu melepak kulitnya
Saya jatuh cinta
Sayang-sayang sayang Kinabalu
Kaamatan pesta bulan lima
Sayang kita pergi ke tamu
ke Tamparuli hati saya rindu
tinggi-tinggi Gunung Kinabalu
tinggi lagi sayang sama kamu
biru-biru hujung Kinabalu
Tengok dari jauh hati saya rindu
(High as Mount Kinabalu is
is as high as my love for you
Blue are the outlines of Kinabalu
from afar, my heart yearns
Kinabalu is near to Kundasang
with lots of vegetables to choose from
What is the point of traveling overseas
climbing Kinabalu, my heart misses it already
Many beautiful young women await
dancing the sumazau
as I see you sit by the mountain's skin
I fall in love
Dearest Kinabalu
Kaamatan falls on the fifth month
Dearest we go to the flea market
to Tamparuli, where my heart yearns some more
High as Mount Kinabalu is
is as high as my love for you
Blue are the outlines of Kinabalu
from afar, my heart yearns)
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Awesome cover, Addamski. Still can't get over how great this song is. Good job, man. Bah. Lepas buat remix ni bagus ko pigi naik gunung skarang. ]xP Orang Sabah kunun. Bagus kami dua naik, bawa satu tajau tapai. Hehehehe.
It's so strange how I could possibly love a place so much but it's possible and I do. There really is no place like Sabah. I love days when the sky is clear and you can see the mountain. Nothing beats that. Nuh uh.
(photograph randomly found online)
